When I Close My Eyes

My fingers itch and burn to tell you
To write down all I feel
I see so much that I need you to know
And if I write forever, I could not begin
You are indescribable

In times like these I need to close my eyes
And see that I'm on Holy Ground
I need to know in my heart, and not just my mind
That you are all around
Take off my sandals, and let my toes sink in
Just feel the earth, feel the sky
And I see you here with me
I can see you when I close my eyes

With my eyes I see only darkness
When I close them, You are Light
Oh let there be light in my soul
I am lost, I am blind, but I see you
You are merciful to me

In times like these I need to close my eyes
And see that I'm on Holy Ground
I need to know in my heart, and not just my mind
That you are all around
Take off my sandals, and let my toes sink in
Just feel the earth, feel the sky
And I see you here with me
I can see you when I close my eyes

I've come into your Holy Presense
I can't look upon the radiance of your face
So I close my eyes and shield myself from you
Only to see, that you are inside me

This Is Me

I am here
In this place you brought me
What do you want?
I can't see
Darkness envelopes
Even my brightest days
What once was light is
Unpentrable haze

This is me Lord, I am nothing
Take what I have, take it all
What little I have is all yours now
In humble repentence I fall

Self-pity destroys
What you're trying to build
I'm prideful
And I'm very strong-willed
Just take it away
I'm tired of fighting you
I can't ever win
Unless I'm made new

I am just me, no one special
Yet I was chosen by you
I don't deserve the love you give
You're righteous, holy, and true
This is me Lord, you're my everything
You alone can give what I need
Your joy has spread all through me
I'll follow where you lead

The Waltz

It's a mountain breeze
That cools my face tonight
Like a gentle hand
It makes everything alright
I breathe your goodness
Like an exotic fragrance
You've swept me off my feet
And drawn me into the dance

The strains of music fade
As we waltz across the floor
If only I had wings
Above the clouds I'd soar
This is the way I feel
There's something in your touch
That heals my brokeness
And makes me love you much

Even when the music stops
This feeling will go on
No matter where we are
At dusk or before dawn
As long as you are with me
Though we may waltz alone
You're all I need to have
To feel like I've just flown

To Have You

I believe the truth because it's true
I know you're there because I feel you
But this goes deeper than feelings
I know you, I know you know me
When I listen, you speak to me
But this is louder than sound
This is better than life
This is everything within me crying out to know you
Because I need you
You can satisfy
You bring me love, joy, peace
But the greatest gift of all
Is just to have you

Standing Stronger

Another long journey
Perhaps almost done
Another hard battle
But the victory is won
I'm standing stonger now
That I have for awhile
Not bowing under pressure
Or shaken when on trial
Scared to be your child
And show the world love
I was lost and dark
Needing light from above
I'm standing stronger now
Because you love me
Standing bolder now
Because you set me free

So Faithful

I've learned the truth so many times
So often I have seen so clearly
Who you are and how you love
And how you are so faithful
I've seen myself in your eyes
And I don't know what's left to love
I have been so unfaithful
Now I'm broken and crawling in the dust

This heart's been used before
And my mind won't let you in
My soul has shut you out
But still you love
I've done everything but follow
My rebellion slaps you in the face
I push the thorns in deeper
Still you love me

So often I stumble and fall
In blind pursuit of the truth
If I opened my eyes I could see you
Just standing there, loving me
The truth slips from my fingers
I've held it, but I'm always letting go
In your faithfulness you guide me
Until I can see again

This heart's been used before
And my mind won't let you in
My soul has shut you out
But still you love
I've done everything but follow
My rebellion slaps you in the face
I push the thorns in deeper
Still you love me

You don't let go when I let go
When I bite the dust in despair
I can never measure up to who you are
But still you love
You are faithful when I am unfaithful
When I turn my back on your way
I want to follow your heart again
Because I know you still love me

Smile on my Face

Lord, I am not even worthy
To kiss the Holy Ground around your feet
I am not worthy to even glimpse from afar
The beauty shining from your face

I tremble in awe of all that you are
and wonder can I be like you?
You're all I need
All I ever want to be
But I can't get close to you
You came close to me

I did not choose you, you chose me
I could not kiss the ground
And so you kiss my salt stained cheeks
I cannot stand before you
So just hold me
I want to be near you
So hold me here

I am not afraid of you
You love me, I know you do
You put the smile on my face
You made me sing your praise
I don't have to tremble
For you run to hold me
Arms are open for me
Here, I am safe
Here, tears turn to smiles